Philip began the day with doubts.
He had not recognized Scarlet as Esme even when she took her mask off at the masquerade dinner and even when she spent a day and night with him at the garrison. He remembered the easy feeling of comfort with her there, although there was also some unnamable discomfort as well. And even with her green eyes matching his memory of Esme, he had not put two-and-two together until heād heard that her middle name was Esmeralda.
Certainly, they were both very different people from then.
Celeste Boffrey had been the proprietor of the Crusty Edge in those days. He hadnāt been back there in years and wondered if Celeste was even still living. She must have been in her fifties even then.
Heād been a street urchin, of sorts, although he wasnāt homeless like mostājust mostly homeless. He had a bed to lay in at night near his father, but his father was gone by dawn and not back until well after dark, earning a half shilling a day, but spending two pence on booze a night, had not been a recipe for success. It had been survivalānothing more.
There were kids far worse offāthose who slept in the abandoned buildings or under someoneās house curled up against the hearth footing where a little bit of heat could almost be felt. Heād never quite been there desperate. In fact, heād often brought those types of kids into the flat when his father was passed out, hiding them at the foot of his bed under clothing so they could sleep through a particularly cold night.
Heād hung out near Celesteās place most mornings, hoping for a dropped scrapābut rarely finding oneāuntil one morning sheād confronted him.
āYouāre here every morning,ā she said.
āYes, mum,ā Edmund said.
āThatās better than I can say for some of my helpers. What say we get some bread into you this morning? But hereās the catchāyou work for me. Taking deliveries āround. You do that for me, you get one square a day. Got it?ā
He got more than one square meal per day out of the deal. There might be some leftover crusts, or something burned, or an extra biscuit that accidentally fell into his mouth while carrying a package of them to Mrs. Yearnst. Or Betty Moss who, whenever he brought her a pecan pie, would always give him a tiny sliver of it as a reward, with a little fresh cream on the side.
It took him about two hours of time in the mornings and another three, perhaps in the afternoons, leaving him time between ten and two with nothing but time on his hands for four hours midday.
Thatās when he discovered the old common houseāa building bought by a new owner who intended to tear it down and replace it with a new tavernāwhich he eventually did. On the site now sits the well regarded Cap and Quill, an establishment frequented by the students at the universityārich kids who would become merchants.
But before then, the old common house had been a place for adventures.
The pretty blonde girl with the green eyes, like a living forest, had come to Celesteās to buy a basket with bread and hermits. Celeste was well known for her hermitsāa delicious molasses cookie filled with nuts and bits of fig, cooked as a single bread on a large rectangular cooking sheet and then cut into squares and wrapped individually.
She had caught his eye while holding the basket, and heād smiled goofily at her. She remained aloof through the encounter until sheād paid a penny for her basket. She skipped off, heading wherever it was she lived, but had stopped a few paces on, turned her head, ensured he was still watching her, and gave him a wink.
Later, he saw her wandering around Celesteās looking around as if sheād lost something, and then smiling happily upon spying him.
āHi,ā sheād said. āIām Esme.ā
āEdmund,ā heād said. āPleased to meet you.ā
Sheād fiddled around in her skirts and produced two of the individually wrapped hermits, giving him one.
Theyād gone to his hideoutāthe old common house basement, where they ate hermits and planned how they might one day become king and queen and make sure that the children everywhere always had hermits to eat.
Three years they had adventured in the old common house while the city argued with the new landowner about the size of the tavern.
By then, theyād shared many hermits, doughnuts, sponge cake, and even a slice of strawberry pie once that Edmund had thought the best thing ever invented, except girls. Well, except for one girl. One certain girl. With the eyes like the forest, who moved like the wind, and who smelled of every spring flower all at one time.
They were twelve by then, and he was totally in love with her, though he was afraid to say it, and she never gave any hint of reciprocating; instead, reminding him often he needed a bath, which were very hard to come by. On the other hand, she continued to show up three or four times a week, even against her fatherās wishes, and that was not nothing.
So when heād shown her his treasure and she kissed his cheek, he had turned his head on purpose to try to catch her lips. It was a joke, really. Just fooling about. But the result had been something that made him, for the first time, feel a little bit differently about her.
And then she had simply been gone.
Philip had excuses, he thought, for why he hadnāt recognized it was her.
But heād spent the time since assuming she hadnāt recognized it was him either. But what if she had? What if she knew he was Edmund all along and had made it clear that she didnāt want him? Why should he assume she didnāt know? Why should he think he was the only one operating with limited knowledge?
Was it because, when he was introduced as Philip Beckwith, she hadnāt asked, āI thought you were called Edmund?ā Was that the only reason he assumed she had not recognized him too?
Maybe he was the only one playing a game without a full hand of cards. Maybe she had looked at the owl unmasked and knew it was him all along?
The thought made him sick to his stomach.
But what was there to do other than to ride to her, hopefully find her, and let her know that he finally knew who she was? He could apologize to her and try to explain his ignorance. She might accept that. Esme had always been brighter than him. It was one of the things that had drawn him to her.
He was almost certain that Scarlet and Esme were the same person. Heād convinced himself it was trueāit must be true. It must be the same familyāthe same girl to whom he gave the papers and, eventually the ring, when her father had demanded it.
That day in the abandoned house when sheād returned to find him, her father in tow. Heād been happy to see her and then immediately fearful for his life. It had been the last time he saw her. He could still remember her turning her head to glance over her shoulder as her father pulled her by the hand, out of his life, for good.
It had to be the same girl. He was sure of it. Wasnāt he?
He reached down and patted Bellaās neck. She was one of six he owned, but she had, recently, become his favorite. She had been steady and reliable. Not, perhaps, as fast as Dart, his chestnut Bagstock stallion who he tended to ride in battle. Bella had become more of a traveling companion on a lonely road. She was, as he, growing tired of the journey, but she never complained.
He stopped early for the day, with the sun still up. If Scarlet were still alive, she would certainly be in Psalterās Point by now. But so would Ashcroft, who almost certainly had some association with creatures of undeath that had attacked him and drained his life force.
He shuddered at the idea of one of them doing that to Scarlet.
But at this point, he was so far behind that if theyād meant to do that, they might already have done so, making his ongoing pursuit of her meaningless. Still, he was going to go after her, but trying to rush at breakneck speed to overtake them was pointless. He hadnāt caught them and wouldnāt. Either he would find her or he wouldnāt.
But he would not be much good to her without sleep and he hadnāt rested well for a couple of weeks. He built a bigger fire than normal, given the increased chill of the last few nights, and splurged on a piece of salted pork cooked thoroughly and partnered with beets.
He was halfway through his first beet when he saw a northern fox stalking through the woods. Much bigger than a typical red fox, but smaller than a wolf, they were an efficient predator, though not really a threat to a man.
The fox turned in his direction, but nose to the ground, not seeing him as he sat silently, unmoving, just watching nature play out in front of him.
The fox paused, one paw in the airāmid-stride.
And then something between them scurried.
Philip heard a sound like the snap of a whip. The fox jumped, whined, and darted past the fire.
He heard a second snap.
Then he felt the sting. Two of them. One in the thigh, another in his ankle. Like bee stings.
He never saw the creature. Just motion in the underbrush that moved through the forest and disappeared.
āShardtail,ā Philip whispered.
That was not good news.
The creatures werenāt normally dangerous to humans, provided you left them alone. They were a medium sized lizard, low to the ground, typically slow moving, but capable of dashing quickly for short bursts. They grew five to seven quills from their tail which, when whipped at a creature, flew at significant velocity and embedded in the flesh.
Hence the initial sting.
But the initial sting wasnāt the problem. The venom was the problem. And two quills in Philip was the worst kind of wound. Not enough to kill him, just enough to make him wish he was dead.
They didnāt act like arrows. An arrow tore, bled, declared itself. These went in almost clean. The tail flicked, there was a sting like a wasp, and thenānothing that seemed worth stopping for. A rider might curse, shift in the saddle, and keep moving.
The quills were barbed, but not for holding. They were designed to catch on withdrawal. The shaft was rigid near the tip, then subtly jointed. Every step of the horse, every twist of the riderās torso, worked it. Not deeperālooser. The outer segment began to separate along a natural fault line, like a twig bent back and forth with each movement.
Inside each quill was a narrow reservoir, sealed under pressure. The venom was contained, waiting for the break. When the shaft finally fractured, it didnāt just snap. It splintered inward, a tiny collapse that drove the fluid through microchannels along the barbs and into the surrounding muscle.
It wasnāt a flood. It was worse than that.
A slow leak.
The long term effects were unpleasant to deadly and the worst thing you could do was pluck the quills, breaking them off inside youāwhich they were meant to do. There would be fever, muscle stiffness, paralysis. If it stayed in you long enough, every movement over multiple days would break open more of the channels in the quill, redosing you with venom over and over again, and eventually distributing paralytic agent to your heart and lungs.
Philip cut his trousers at both the thigh and ankle, carefully pulling back the cloth and inspecting the quills.
The one in his ankle was not deep and not particularly dangerous. A few minutes with his knife, a binding cloth, and torqwood sap would do the trick, but working on his ankle with a quill still in his thigh would not be easy. It would risk continual breakage along the length of the quill. And the one in his thigh was quite deep.
He stared at his leg for a while, watching the tiny wounds redden.
There was no choice. He was going to have to cut the one out of his ankle whole and accept that the one in his thigh was going to remain there. It just meant he would have to ride gingerly for the next several days, possibly up to a week, leaking a little bit more venom with every movement, and being prepared for the sickness, until it became infected. Eventually, the venom would weaken, the quill would be surrounded by pus, and he would then be able to extract it like a large sliver and begin the healing process.
But that meant a very bad week coming up.
Philip gingerly leaned down and held his knife blade in the flames, and opened the flesh of his ankle as tears came to his eyes.
He looked at the extracted quill in the firelight, glad to see that its end barb was fully intact. He tossed it into the fire.
Then, wincing, he dug through his pack. Torqwood sap and cloth strips. The sap was known to be clean and hold flesh closed. The cloth strips would protect the injured flesh.
He applied them carefully, first to his ankle, and then over the small spot in his thigh where he had cut off the second quill.
He lay down in his bedroll, draping his arm over his forehead.
āWell,ā he said. āThis trip just got worse.ā
He grabbed his journal, opened it to the last page and saw his last entry.
The girl I love is the girl I love.
Below that, he wrote:
I donāt love shardtails.
Stephen B. Anthony is the author of Transmigrant, an epic science fiction thriller, available on both Amazon and Audible. The first seven chapters are available on this website for free.